Sometimes pages turn more quickly than we expect

So not too long after my latest set of thoughts I receive an email from my son telling me that his grandfather is in grave health and that he is en route to the nursing home where his grandfather currently resides. Now I don't know if you can refer to a father in law as an "ex" father in law since he and I never parted ways...but he is my former father in law.

We had an interesting relationship that changed dramatically for the better when Kate was born and grew even more when Drew came along. I've not seen him in many years, but what I do remember is how withdrawn and how sullen he almost always was. Now, it seems, he will be leaving us and what strikes me is the lack of joy he seemed to have. It's almost as if this is yet another "sign" for those who believe in such things that for me, it is time to not only turn the page but maybe seek out brand new books on what I hope is a long, happy, mystery filled ongoing journey....

funny how some events just seem to happen isn't it?

Turn the page??

So I've never given voice before to the actual thoughts of turning the page and seeking a new adventure. I mean honestly, moving from GHS to WHS was not really a new adventure it was just a change of locale much the same way that moving from Greenwich to Trumbull or Trumbull to Norwalk or even Yonkers to Lenox, MA was a change of locale.

Now, I'm actually for the first time, actually entertaining thoughts of a major change. I have to keep it in perspective as I always hit a low ebb this time of year and in most years a week in the sunshine reinvigorates me. So since that won't happen this year due to scheduling and redirecting things toward the Hawaii trip I do have to take a breath and see if that has anything to do with it.

On the other hand, this feeling is stronger than ever and I've actually begun to put some feelers out about putting a plan in place. I will also take a hard look at all things financial over the next couple of months both short and long term as, of course, that impacts all. The good news is that my M.O. has always been to be more productive when my back is to the wall and if I'm planning on sooner rather than later I would now be officially in "back to the wall" planning mode.

So...for those interested, stay tuned I think, like a roller coaster, the journey as started heading up the last hill and the trip down the other side could be a really wild ride...